Let Her Go

Recently I've been having writers block, I haven't been sure what to write. I thought about writing about dark times that I've had and the struggles that I have been experiencing lately. With the hopes that anyone who reads this will know that they can get through whatever they are going through. But that's not what I wanted to share just yet.  I thought, what will ignite my passion and is something that I could write about for hours... then The Paper Kits spoke to me "Love we go down, we go down, we can love, we can love" It was clear to me... write about love. 

This year has really been a great year so far. Ive been surrounded by individuals that love me and appreciate the person I am. I have gained incredible friendships, taught amazing students, have wonderful conversations with strangers and learned to be a woman who smiles and isn't afraid to be herself. I think its truly amazing when we can chose to love through the hardest times. When we can face the mirror and chose to love those around us. How much easier is life when we lead with love instead of anger, fear, negativity, or hatefulness!

 I used to be very timid. I have always received inappropriate attention. Cat calling, rumors, being called unkind words, challenged when I just wanted to be accepted, and those instances made me look down a lot- literally put my head down- I still notice to this day that I don't always hold my head high. I used walk into a room of people or the grocery store and hold my head low; just hoping I wouldn't be noticed... because if I was noticed all the horrible things about me would be discovered.

I didn't want people to notice me.... I have lived a life fearful that I would be seen and until recently I discovered what I was doing to my soul. I would always wear black, hair up in a bun, nothing to draw anyones eyes to me. In my head " If I wore enough black, I wouldn't stick out like that bright pink shirt that girl was wearing, and that everyone was staring at. But, one day I woke up and my soul couldn't take it anymore. She couldnt stand being buried, neglected, and not being seen. 

One day I was getting ready for work and as I looked in my mirror I saw myself, dressed in all black, simple makeup, hair in a bun.... I then heard in my head "Why are you still hiding?"... As I drove to work I really reflected on what the voice inside my head meant. "Why are you still hiding?" What does that even mean? After class that night I realized that I had to start loving myself. I had NO self love. I HAD HIDDEN MYSELF FOR SO LONG THAT I COULDNT SEE MYSELF FOR THE WOMAN I WAS!

Ive always struggled with my weight. Its defined me for the longest time, and its been my biggest defeat. I was always told that "black thins you out"; so with an unhealthy thought about myself, thats all I ever wanted to wear. I soon noticed that I wasn't visible in it...  Ive been bullied by my weight- from people I used to know and from people I've loved the most-, but mostly myself. Ive wanted to hide my body for so long that I hid the essence of McKenzie. I hid her spirit, her passion, her charisma, her laugh, her smile, her eyes, her deserved opinions, and her voice... 

I was the girl with such a "beautiful face" but when a guy saw my body... I never herd from him again. I was the "Oh- she's just my friend" But after everyone was gone I was deserving of attention. I was the exception to the rule till friends found out- then I was the hidden girl, then I was the nothing girl. And thats OK- as hurtful as those experiences were... they made me the woman I am today. With a healthy amazing body, thank you for not letting me fall for you. 

I am a romance movie BUFF! I LOVE, LOVE! I love the vulnerability of love. I love the innocence of love. I love the way your heart releases when you hug someone you care for. I love the feeling of my body relaxing in the arms of someone who I know loves me. I love being trusted in someones aura to receive their love and to give them mine. I love being someones listening ear to their hearts deepest thoughts. I love the glance before a kiss is exchanged. I love feeling a mans heartbeat on my hand as kiss him. I love the silent exchange of a thought as my lips part and I look into a mans eyes I trusted to exchange one of my truest gifts... 

Wow... that was an unexpected rant..

Back to the point! The strong female leads in my favorite movies never hide themselves. In general if you think of a woman you admire, or a character who drives your soul she is colorful, passionate, has a different vibration, and gives her love to what really drives her. 

One day I woke up and my soul told me I could no longer hide her. It was time to set her free and that If I put my faith in her... everything would be okay. I would be sounded by unconditional love, extraordinary experiences, passion that expelled from my heart and a love for myself that would take over my whole body, mind and soul. 

Since the day that I let fear walk away I have been given an unconditional amount of love. I have had extraordinary experiences. I have felt warmth from my heart fill the room as I've talked about my goals, passions, and loves. I have been BLESSED with the most AMAZING new friends. I have been blessed with people who feed my soul and I have been able to recognize individuals who have wanted permission to feed my soul!  I have learned to smile without fear. I have learned that everyone deserve to hear my laugh and see my smile. 

Through this life changing, life altering, emotion filled, realization; I have truly come to love McKenzie. I have recognized the place I have in my loved ones hearts. I have come to love her, by loving others more than I have loved myself. 

I think we need to realize that loving ourselves is just the start to our purpose... Loving others with our whole heart is really where our connection starts. Asking ourselves "How can I show this person love today?", "How can I have a conversation filled with love?". I have experienced myself diving in and loving those around me; and in return loving myself as they love me. Through my devotion to loving others, I have come to see myself in a light that I never saw before and honestly see those new found appreciations. 

Love is a powerful thing; and I don't have it all figured out yet. But I do know that we deserve to live a life out of hiding. I know that we deserve to live a life full of laughter, passion, and being able to tell those around us, " I appreciate the woman/man you are because of your strength. I admire how you never give up and the example you are to me" "I hope you know that I love the way you make me smile.", "I truly admire the person you are and what you mean to me", "I love having the privilege of showing you what you mean to me"

I used to be hide... and now I don't.  I see myself as the woman others want to be around. I see myself as a light... and when I envision myself, I see my smile. I see my eyes smiling back at you. I see my warm embrace inviting you in, and I see myself loving you. I see that because of my ability to love myself; I have so much more room to love you. To value you. To care for you. To accept you. To encourage you. To admire you. To serve you. To look at you... and feel the warmth of my heart surround you. 

There is only so much hiding we can do before we need to be set free... 

The promise is: You will be given an unconditional amount of love. You will have extraordinary experiences that shake your core. You will fill the warmth of your heart expand as you think upon your passions and dreams. You will fill your heart expand to unknown depths as you act in those passions... and you will find yourself. 

If you haven't found the right map to a happier life, or fulfilling things toupee always wanted to do... I encourage you to choose to love others. Unconditionally. In return The Promise will always stay true. 

So let yourself go... Be free.

To: Lisa, Judy, Kathy, Stephanie, Gracie, Cassidy, Aislin, Amie, Chantele, Aleca, Sara, Harmony, Tara, Ron, Sean, Brent, Greg, DaleAnne, My Father in Heaven... Thank you for loving me to a capacity that I was able to finally see myself. 

To My Future Love: I'm ready for ya. 

To: You.

"The things you are passionate about are not random, they are your calling"

McKenzie Age 5-17: I want to be a sports news caster
McKenzie Age 14-17: I also want to be a teacher....
McKenzie Age 15-18: I want to do hair, YAY cosmetology school!
McKenzie Age 18- 19: I want to be a Master Esthetician!! (I decided on that one)
McKenzie Age 19-Present: I want to Inspire people....
KO

It is so funny to look back, and see the things I wanted to "be", and the trades I wanted to peruse. I wanted to be so many things, and have so many different paths in my life. I wanted to be a lover, sports news caster (OBVIOUSLY so I could marry Derek Jeter), teacher (follow the family trend), photographer, makeup artist, master esthetician and a spray tan artist. After all these, "I'm not budging, don't tell me I'll change my mind, YES THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE", conversations, and obvious changes I have made.

 I found what I want to do.

 I have found "it".

 I have found out what I want to be.

 And that's simply... Me.

I want to be McKenzie. A Loving, Passionate, Caring, Daring, Powerful, daughter, granddaughter, sister, niece, and friend. Not only do I want to be me... but I want to INSPIRE you to be you. I want to inspire men and woman all over the world. I want to give you HOPE. I want to fill your heart with PASSION. I want to show you how to open yourselves to be the most amazing person you can be. I know this is my calling. I feel it in every cell of my body. This is it. To be here for you, and to make a difference, big or small.

I want you all to know how loved you are. If you cant love yourself, know that there is someone who loves you, cares for you, and thinks you are beautifully unique. Your individuality has no comparison to those around you. You can make a difference, you are capable and you are enough! I am dedicated to you, I am in awe of you, and I want you to know that I will bring my passion to you.

Here is my announcement: I am going to dive into my passion. I am going to be writing blogs once a week, and start recording videos about beauty, skin care, fashion, dating, relationships, love, acceptance, fears, and building your self worth. I believe that you are worth it, and not only deserve to feel, but be your best. I want to be a part of your life, and I want you to tell me what you want to hear, see, learn, and what topics can help you build yourself.

My message to you:

 I believe in you SO much! Even if we have never met, I think you have SO much potential! I think you deserve a life where you wake up every morning and you realize that you are enough, you are so enough, and that it's unbelievable how enough you are! I want to help you, guide you, and build a community filled with amazing talented individuals who thrive!

Love yourself, fight for the life you have always wanted. Build a life with things that make your heart beat fast, your eyes light up, put a smile on your face, and make you believe.

I love you all, be kind to each other, and never ever think you are alone or that you can't do something. Because you can.

Xo

Kenz

Be Strong! You Have The Power! Not Them!

I recently went back to the online dating scene. I know, I know, and before everyone gives me the speech of "I have so much time to meet someone", read on. I wanted to meet more friends, or people I could hang out with, get to know and see if I could build a foundation on friendship. I know what your thinking, "Good luck with that!". To my credit I met some very interesting, fun, amazing people! I hung out with a few guys, went bowling, played pool, went to Jazz games. Met some guys who play for the Grizzlies, and the Bees. What I wasn't expecting were all the rude individuals that I would encounter, and how I couldn't allow those hurtful words to get to me.

With online dating you put up a few of your best pictures, a little biography about yourself and what your likes or dislikes are. Then you start getting the messages and BAM! Everyone thinks they know you. They know your life! Who you are, based off of what you like or don't like. They know your character based off your looks and because they know you, they can tell you whatever they want right? NO! FALSE! People these days think that they have the right to tell you who you are, because they simply "know you", or "people like you." But remember, they don't really know you. They have read a few words you have wrote, seen a few pictures, and knows that you like chocolate ice cream more than vanilla. But so does the guy you just bought that Chocolate ice cream from. He saw what you looked like, he knew you worked across the street and wanted some ice cream on your lunch break. They are superficial encounters. 

HERE IS MY POINT: You do not allow individuals(especially those who do not know you) to take your happiness, power, success, love or respect that you have for yourself.
READ AGAIN: I do not allow individuals or those who do not know me to take MY happiness, power, success, love, or respect for MYSELF! 

Now what brought up this post? Well, a few days ago I received a message from a man. He seemed nice, funny and maybe he can give me a few tips in the gym(because he was a personal trainer).  After getting to know him, I realized he had no skills in conversation, and would only talk about himself. Total turn off. I then politely told him that I wasn't interested. Our conversation was in a low point and I found my opportunity. After that I received a message that I was not expecting.

"Whatever liking I have had for you, it has never been of such a character that I could be otherwise than disgusted by such pictures as yours. They are unutterably coarse and gross and beefy. It is simply unendurable. Not that I object to women, when the unveiling reveals attractions which the eye of the artist loves as something shapely and beautiful. I have an instinctive and cultivated knowledge of what physical beauty is and anything in direct violation of my taste and knowledge-like your picture- simply sickens me. I have studied every limb and line in the bodies of fifty young women and more, and know what form is and beauty is. You must not think me a fool. You are a fine woman in regard to health and strength, you are not a handsome or even a tolerably good looking woman physically and your pictures are simply horrible, horrible, horrible. This is plain speaking but I think its necessary for you. You cannot make yourself physically attractive. Don't try, I am an artist, a student of beauty and its very hard to please me. Don't disgust me."

After this you could imagine how astonished I was. This man used something so delicate(to me and every woman in the world)  to make himself feel bigger than me, and for a second it sadly worked. I have been working for my dream body and at this point I let his hurtful words make me question my hard work, determination, and love for my body. But then I realized, He doesn't know me, he doesn't know who I really am. He doesn't know that hard work I've put into my body, and he doesn't know my heart; therefore he is not allowed to take my happiness, power, success, love, or respect from me.

This situation doesn't just happen online. It happens everywhere; work, school, the gym, and when your out with friends! What you need to remember is that we live in a wold where people think they know you because they have peeled back the first layer of your onion. They think they know you from bulb to your protective layer. But they don't. They don't know you, and they are even though they may talk like they do, they have no power in their statements. They have no control in their actions. Why? Because only you can give them that power. Only you can allow them to have that control. Start being strong! Respect yourself to stand up for yourself and say " I will not allow this", and feeling at peace with knowing its OK for not everyone to like you. As long as you love and appreciate yourself, there will be amazing individuals who will love you back.

Please know that you are a strong, powerful, beautiful being that processes so much more than a biography and the liking for chocolate ice cream! You have the power and control to allow things in your life. You have the ability to be stronger and once you are, you will realize these actions don't matter. Only you can allow events or words to hurt you. But you also have the power to get up, dust off, and smile.

I love you all!

Xo, Kenz

What Being 20 and 2013 Taught Me.

Well, here I am. Just finished making some homemade jambalaya; now eating some cookies and milk thinking about the past year, and pondering over what has happened. A lot.. a lot has happened. I wish that I could watch it. All those moments that I felt joy, comfort, love, and sadness. As I always say there are events that happen in our lives. To shape, and teach us. Theses events make us who we are. 

Remember growing up... thinking "I cant wait to be older! Do my own thing. Move out, go to college, have a career, find an amazing man/woman, get married, and start an incredible life with them!" Perhaps that's not what you thought, but it was my plan. It was my hope, my drive, my dream. Now that I am here... it never happens that way; does it? Sure, I went to college, passed my tests and have an incredible career and job that I love. That is something I will always be thankful for! Now in my head it was time to find my other half, the man to "complete me". The man to make all my dreams come true. Or that's at least what I thought. But life hit me, and it doesn't work that way.

 We grow up in a society that makes us believe we will go to college, find our other half, get married, have a mortgage, pop out some babies and grow old. What the world never mentioned was all the life that happens in between. The good, the bad, and the hard cold truth that YOU, and only YOU can complete yourself. YOU are the only person that can motivate yourself. YOU are the only person that can make goals and dreams happen. YOU are the only person that can complete yourself. YOUR happiness depends on YOU. YOUR success is only worked hard for by YOU. YOU are the one responsible for loving YOURSELF. These are all things I learned this year... I am the only one responsible for ME. To love myself, to make myself happy, to work hard for what I want, to be accepting of myself, to create the life I have always wanted; no one at the end of the tunnel but me. With arms open for a huge hug saying "You are amazing, and I am so proud of you." So this year... I learned to love myself.

The next huge lesson I learned is what I deserve as a woman. First off, I deserve a man who loves me, just as much as I love myself. I am an incredible human being. I am a smart, funny, loving, passionate, powerful woman; and I am worthy of the affection given to me. Secondly, I am a woman of high value, and I deserve respect. Ladies we can't keep going out with these men who think its OK if they take us to dinner, that we can take them home. When did a nice dinner turn into " I bought you dinner, so your going to be my dessert."? NO! DON'T DO IT! You deserve a man who will travel to the end of the earth just to see your smile. He isn't the one sweetheart. Along with this I learned that it's OK to say "NO!" If you are not OK with something, tell them. If you are not being respected, tell them. You are not every other girl, and you do not deserve to be treated like one. But with these new lessons you must remember It is a two way street. The special person in your life deserves the same effort, love, respect and affection from you. 

Now that I have self respect and love myself (which lets be honest, isn't the easiest task) I figured out that me, and only me has the power to complete myself.  This is where all of the above comes in play. YOU are the key to YOUR life being complete. You are not a bird in a cage waiting for someone to come along to release you. You are the bird that soars freely, you are the lion who is powerful enough to run a kingdom, You are key to your own lock, and you are the only one who has the ability to set yourself free. 

Other than big lessons being taught, I experienced some miracles too. I moved into my first apartment with my best friend, I met incredible friends, I started right out of school with an amazing job, and I was blessed with a little brother who I love with all my heart.

Thank you 2013 for giving me life, love, miracles, struggles, heartache and joy. Thank you to my family who I adore with all I have. Thank you to my friends who have supported me, loved me and given me strength. Thank you for the adventures I had. Thank you for helping me become a better woman, friend, lover, and a step up to the woman I have always envisioned myself becoming. 


Please remember that as you go through life, it wont always be easy, but baby there is light at the end of a hard day. I promise you are loved, accepted, adored and cherished. You have to complete yourself before someone can compliment your life.You have to respect yourself before someone will respect you. Live a little! Do crazy things, you'll regret it if you don't.  Now you have to take the step in loving, accepting, adoring, and cherishing yourself.

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Kenzie

Hard Lesson I Had To Learn...

Recently I have been going through all my drawers in my room and my cute little chest that have my most personal items. Cards from family, notes from my friends, letters from church council and love letters from men that have been in my life. Reading through these brought up so many emotions... love, happiness, compassion, anger, joy, and sadness. I then asked myself why am I keeping so many things from my ex boyfriends that make me cry?!

I started saving cards when I was 12 years old. I saw my aunt do it, and thought what a brilliant idea! I can look at these for forever and they will bring back so many memories. I can remember loved ones hand writing, their voices and the bond we shared. But something I never expected to remember was the heartbreak from loss.

1. When I was 15 I met a boy that changed my world. He made me laugh, made me come out of my shell, made me feel something that I never had. He made me feel what being in love felt like... and I loved him. We laughed, we cried, we loved so hard that it exhausted us to the point that we no longer knew how to love each other. Now that I am older I understand that once there is that amount of love between two people there is nothing that we can do but let it be... We cant keep building it, we cant keep trying new things to make us closer. We are where we need to be, and that is the simplicity of love.

2. Two years after that I met another boy who stole my heart again, but it was soon returned to me crumbled in pieces. This boy was everything I wanted... He had faith, morals, goals, loved my family, brought me flowers, cards, gave me love letters, and made sure that I knew I was the love in his life. We ended our relationship because I had just started college and was working. I barely had anytime, not only that I had a very jealous green monster whispering in my ear not to be with this perfect man. This jealous green monster was (no longer is) my best friend. Once I realized I was in love with him and that I wanted to be his princess together for eternity in our gold castle... he was gone; to another princess in another kingdom far away.

3. A year and a half later I met a MAN that made me believe that I may be able to love again. On our first date we clicked! It was like fireworks in a museum full of stars and elephants and sunflowers and your favorite song playing! (Imagine it.... yes that amazing). It was a blind date, and before he was even at my door I knew he was a special person, I could feel it through my whole body. We loved hard and fast. We shared moments I'll never forget. He showed me what a family outside of my immediate family was. His house,  referencing to me as mom with our dogs, his family being so close to me. Motorcycle rides through the canyon, sharing parts of my life that I had never shared with anyone. In the viewers eye our relationship was great. But underneath the final print are always mistakes. We had made plenty and his last was cheating on me. At the end of this chapter of my life I remember screaming up to heaven, " WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO LEARN FROM THIS!" My answer soon came.

In life we have so many events that make us who we are. I have found that I am a person that holds on to the happy moments... but also the sad. Why? Because I believe that in every hurt, every tear, every rejection, every moment that makes our stomach turn we haven't fully learned until we can look at that moment and feel peace. We are not the strongest person that we can be till we can look at a moment and no longer feel pain.   I don't think that we are fully over an event till we can accept it and feel love in our hearts. So finally to the question of why did I keep these silly letters and cards from my ex's. Well.. I had lessons to learn.

1. Love is supposed to be simple. We shouldn't have to work on loving someone. It should come easy... if it doesn't, It's not meant to be.
2. Never let someone who isn't in your relationship control it. You have the reigns and you control how you feel. You dont need others approval.. all you need is YOUR approval.
3. Listen to your inner being... the one who gives you the feelings as if something is wrong. Listen to yourself, don't ignore your natural knowing; because in the end you only end up hurting yourself.
4. When sparks fly, and you want to drive 100 MPH into candy land with him... DRIVE! Don't stop! Because those sparks are only given to us so often. Love hard, deep, be free with your words and expressions of love towards him. Don't let fear get in the way!!

Loss always brings lessons. People don't just come into your life to leave it and hurt you. They come in it to teach us something (hopefully for things or actions we will never make again) , and make us stronger. It sucks but we all go through it. We lose, we regret, we accept, we learn, we become stronger, and we move on. Most would say its "natures way or that's how life is". I disagree. Life isn't about loss,life is about receiving. In loss we lose... and by living we receive. Receive the lessons, receive the love, receive the peace and move on with living your life. I need a reminder of this all the time. At first its hard but everyday it gets easier and easier. Receive the life given to you.. accept the lose and know that there is a much bigger plan out there for us than we will ever know. He will come, and when he does.. remember drive 100MPH!

XoXo
Kenzie

Confidence in SECONDS! What? How?! Well this is how... :)

    Confidence! That amazing when you have it but horrible feeling when you don't tiny little green monster on your shoulder that rules the world! (Ok, maybe that was a little dramatic) But I think not! Lets be honest, confidence is huge, and in today's society it looked for in every individual. Whether its a job interview, a date, an important meeting, or simply confidence in yourself; its IMPORTANT. Unfortunately, for most, its something that we really have to work on. But in reality, it's hard to work on gaining confidence, and we all have our low days.

    When I was in high school, I had a big lack of confidence, and it really affected me. My grandma taught me this system and every time I walk into a room now, I rock it! People know who I am, know what I represent, and  see the confidence I carry. So here is my secret to gaining confidence in seconds, and rocking everyday!

     Here is how:
1. Close your eyes, take three deep breath. Calm your mind and your nerves.
2. Think of the things you want to achieve today, or what you want to feel. Example: " I am Confident, Beautiful, and Amazing at my job", or, "I am Confident, Smart, Beautiful and Lovable". It can be any combination of the things you want to be that day, and how you want to be seen by others.
3. Pretend you have a zipper from just bellow your belly button to the top of your head, and the zipper is undone. Were going to zip ourselves up!
4. Take the imaginary zipper and as your zipping up take a deep breath and say you combination of words. Do this three times, taking a deep breath between each zip.
5. When you get to your third zip, lock the zipper and throw away the key. 
(If you need to zip up more than three times, zip up till you feel that confidence)

    I do this every day before I leave the house, it makes a huge difference for me. Every time I go on a date, I zip up, and those three simple words I told myself I was, is how he saw me that night. Before a job interview I'm all shakes, but when I zip up, I walk into that room like I own it. If I'm intimated by someone, I sneak to the bathroom and zip up! I come out of the bathroom and all eyes are on me. I hope that you all try this and can gain that extra boost of confidence that we all need sometimes!

Don't let the little green monster get you down!!
Try it.... NOW!
Own your day, because its yours to own, and yours to enjoy!

Xo
Kenz

Dating: Its Time To Get Back Up!

Have you ever had that moment of realizing a big part of your life is gone, and you will never get it back? We all have a past, and in that past are moments we will never forget. As we grow up we find friends that stick with us for life. Activities that we will always enjoy. Dreams that were always reaching for, but what about love? Love... that moment when nothing else matters. Its only you and that person who makes you whole. When your not near them, it feels like there is a hole in your heart. When you fight, the anger built up isn't even close to the passion you have for one another. When your together, you cant hold in the enjoyment. The giggles, the cries, the laughs, the song you hear on the radio, and you say to yourself... "ours". 

So when love is gone, whats next? When you lose that person that meant the world to you, and all you can see is a black tunnel; where do you go from there? Is there chance that you can love again? And if so, will that love ever compare to that first "true love". I think we all want to know the answers to these questions. WHERE do we go from here? CAN we love again?

 Now lets define that love, because honestly.. I think few know what that word even means anymore. When you look up Love in the dictionary it says, " A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person." What the dictionary doesn't mention is, a best friend, a companion, a person that drives every ambition, a person willing to help you, knows all of your faults, but is still proud to be called yours.

I think after all is said and done, Yes you can love again; but you have to be ready. Now where do we go from here? The only was is forward, one step at a time. Here is my promise to myself, and I hope you make this promise too. I promise that I will love myself, and see the amazing person that I am. I promise to let love into my heart, not scared of what could happen, because when its right, my heart will never be empty again. I promise to NEVER settle for less than I deserve. I promise to believe that I deserve the most amazing man out there, and that together, we can make each other complete. I promise to be a best friend, and if a best friend isn't received, then they aren't for me. I promise each and everyday to find out another amazing thing about myself.

After this blog I hope your heart is filled with hope! Hope that yes you can do this, because I know I'm not the only one having a hard time with this. Enjoy your life, make promises to have adventures, because you could find a love for that! Make promises to go each and everyday finding out another amazing thing about yourself! Make a promise to keep an open heart, because you never know who is waiting around the corner!

With open arms, and a loving heart, lets start a revolution of finding the meaning of true love...

Xo

  Kenz